(Day 1322) Disconnected thoughts…different emotion swings… these things
being true makes me wonder how much sense this blog will make, but I want to
try. I have no pictures to share. I only have the images engraved in my heart. This morning Teresa and I met Hector (mission
lawyer and friend) at the make shift Nueva Esperanza in San Pedro Sula. Because of a fire at their other facility, NE
was relocated downtown because of the damage done. This facility is much smaller, and many of
the children that were formally at NE have been circulated to other places
(some as far away as Tegus). The
director is the same and she has such a beautiful heart, and her commitment and
love for all the children gives me a sense of hope and encouragement.
We went today because we have a couple of open spots here at
FH. Teresa had seen a couple of small
preschool children at NE several months ago, and so we went today looking for
them. They were not there, but there
were plenty of others. Hector explained
to the director that we could take 2 or 3 children, and she began to tell us
about some of them. One little girl
(probably about 2 and half) was standing in her crib smiling, “Hola, Hola,” she
would say and then she would smile some more.
The director saw me looking and I motioned, and she said something to
the effect that she would be a difficult child for us because she probably has
leukemia and has been taking transfusions.
Here the emotions swirl within me!
I know that the director was right, but that is not right and I do not
like it!
By this time, Teresa was holding another little girl (2 or
younger). “What is her name,” Teresa
asked. The director explained that they
called her Allison, but they did not know her name. She was found on the streets abandoned. They do not know her name, her birthday or
anything about her. I really did not
think that we were going to be able to pry that little girl out of Teresa’s
arms. Fortunately, one of the workers
offered Alli a banana and that worked.
Here the emotions swirl within me.
I am angry. How can anyone
abandon such a precious little thing?
Yes, I know sometimes parents have no way and no means to take care of
their children, and that too is not right.
I am angry that there are hundreds of thousands of children (some
estimated 20,000 in Honduras) that have to fend for themselves on the
street. That is not right. I do not like what sin has done to this world,
and yes before any of you say it, “I confess I have played my role in sinning.”
Then the director told us of a brother and sister that had
just arrived (as she told us about them, she had to tell three other boys (10
or 11) to keep moving. What were they
thinking as they walked away? Did they
wonder why not them? Did they know why
we were there? The brother sister tandem
was 6 and maybe 8. Both of them were as
cute as they could be. I talked to them
a little, and then as we were in the office, the director told the little guy
and gal that they were not going with us today, and they walked away. I was sad, but knew that they could not come
with us today.
There are protocols to follow, papers to be filed before any
(or all of these three) call “Faith Home” home.
In fact, with the brother and sister, there is a good possibility that
it will take a while if at all, but then again, if God is for us, who can be
against us, and even if they are, it doesn’t matter! I am happy that God is doing such a good work
here at FH. I believe. There are so many (many in the US that are
abandoned, neglected and hungry), and I know that we cannot take them all. But, some day, I want little Alli to say, I
thank you God that you brought me to FH!”
I also pray that the couple that God is calling here will
take that step of faith and say, “yes.”
It is time. You are needed. You will know some heartache, but God has
some special blessings stored up for you!
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